299th post

I promise i'll make the 300th post a happy one but right now i'm pissed off. I still had a really good night at glor's bday party though so thanks heaps for inviting me :D :D :D And that fruit luxia and sprite was good i liked that.

And now onto why i'm pissed. It's just a cumulation of what's been irritating me the past two weeks.

1. Dress shopping. wtf is this shit why the hell are all the good cuts for my shape good in black. Why the aflsjf are you saying i can't wear any other colour just as well? Am i too narrow minded? Are my standards too high? What am i trying to prove/look for/give in to? Who am i wearing this dress for? The public or me. I have and will continue to hate dress shopping because it is time consuming (by the hour), costly and makes my feet hurt. And maybe i should just walk around in my underwear all day if i'm going to change into like 100 dresses that day. I need a grad dress and i need it now fk you

2. Reasons.  You people sit there looking depressed/dead/stupid and think the world knows what's going on in your head and assume that we can figure out what's wrong with you. Maybe you don't want any help or attention but it's not healthy. So maybe you should open your mouth or write down what's going on so we can deal with it together. And everything has a reason for it, so whether it's stupid or embarrassing... it would be nice to know the reason for once.

3. People that reply with "lol".  What can you even say to that? It's not funny either. In fact, it's always come across as bored or even cold to me.

I'm too tired to continue. Please give me a happy dream tonight.

holidays

Holidays have been good. Yesterday i helped out at mum's work, had yum cha, went to Chadstone to find grad dress (i found it but not correct size) and then sit at home in the dark watching Nigella Lawson's cooking shows because i blew my lights out. wooo

Today i am going to get a haircut, buy my grad dress, go to officeworks (i love stationery shopping), eat and then go to a party. I really need to start driving again.

My doggys were awake at 1am so i had to play with them. And feed them. I'm bored, i should get ready and put some pants on. ...someone's coming up the stairs. argh ...okay it was my dad coming into my room.

I had a strange dream last night. It had a lot of cooking in it but also....cramming for a maths exam. Cramming in all the revision i didn't get to do before the real one. And there was this huge bear chasing us wtf i don't need a bear chasing me during a maths exam okay?? And we had to collect starfish and each of us had an ability and someone's was collecting poisonous starfish. Yes.... and it was a pretty interesting dream and i was having a deep sleep.. so when mum woke me up i didn't feel too annoyed.

Cino keeps running up and down the stairs.

????

WTH NADIA. I didn't even get to say goodbye to you, let alone KNOW about it, (and we were best friends since prep too..) and you're gone for a year ??? Please tell me it's actually a lot shorter than this. This reminds me of when you went away during gr 5 and came back during gr 6 but this is different i suppose.

WHAT ON EARTH. I think i'm about to cry oh dear.. i'm going to miss you so much. I hope you still read my blog.

vivi is sad now =(

I blame this on the separation between the VCE and IB people. Obviously we never talked as much during year 11 and 12 but but but ... i know i can't give you a plane letter now but i can give you all my love. And that's heaps better right? So, i'll give you all my love and every guy you think is hot and i don't LOL omg..

Or maybe i am naive? Maybe i am clinging to the present and not realizing how the future actually unfolds. I think i am mostly in shock that someone so close to me is already gone, even if it's temporarily. If the rest of you are planning to leave, please tell me beforehand.

Come back soon. Or i'll stalk you in HK when i get there in 3 weeks.

schweppes

That looks so refreshing. Did you know guinea pigs eat the green parts of watermelon? nomnomnom but you have to wash it first so less ants get attracted to the sugaryness.

Today i went to BoxHill and then city for a bit.. saw Farn, Belle, James etc.. and then hung around for a while before went home. I bought deodarent woot i can't spell today

I tried Turkish Apple Iced Tea from  T2 today. omfg so refreshing i'm craving it right now... I think i'll stay home tomorrow. Clean guinea pig cage.. i lost my drivers license so i have to replace it .. clean room.. yeah. maybe i'll go pines and get some icecream.

Who wants to hang out with me :( ..somewhere local preferably

whisper

I'm kinda hoping that you people can read my thoughts right now. I'm too tired to type and Espresso is on my bed. Today i went to work, watched New Moon and shuffled and limped everywhere. Thongs are damaging the skin between my big and second toes as well. There is so much to say but this is where i leave telepathy up to you people.

Please penetrate my mind for more information, just as the Valtori clasp their fellow vampires' or Bella's hands for their thoughts. Today i ate a giant cinnamon pretzel.

Jacob is massive drool, nosebleed, hotness, everything. Yes, that's right. Strip that shirt off and walk around topless. Excellent. I like his smile but it would feel awkward hugging him. Hugging tank people isn't very comfy. Bella is so whiny, selfish and... she never smiles. It takes forever for her to say thankyou too.

Today is pair day

My eyes hurt. My limbs ache from yesterday..must stretch. I hate public transport. I want Nandos. Caught in a bad romance. I have to stop being yelled at everyday. I definitely need a second job. I have to clean my room today or my mum will kill me. I miss you.

Edit: I don't think i should have children. They'll turn weird like me and i'll just yell at them all the time. How can joy and uber stress exist in the same being?? Why do people have children anyway? Why did i want a girl and a boy when i was young.

sushi life

Love After Love 

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

- Derek Walcott 

Today i joined some Body Pump class for fun. I could feel myself toning up again..until i ate that potato cake. And then i had nothing better to do so i swam for an hour, with goggles this time. Floated around for a bit after... Then i bussed to Westfield and bought a dress for $30 instead of $60 and then bussed to Box Hill and i know being shallow is a bad habit but i hate having to listen to rude people (bitches) on public transport. It really ruins my day and i love being shallow at times like this. So i got off and wandered around.. and bumped into Farn etc. so followed them for a bit.. and then i had a dentist appointment.. 1 filling hmm.. fell asleep on the couch waiting for mum to come. 

I'm so tired. Big Bang Theory is soon. I also bought The Time Traveler's Wife. I'm enjoying it so far. The author uses many poems as her epigraphs. 

I need to stretch.  

long post

Friday:
Farn's party :D hehehe hamburger pillow and actually knew quite a few people there so that was good. so caught up with a few people and bummed in various places... and i liked the food. i was going to eat at 9:30 but i got a tummy ache so... didn't get to eat dinner at usual time :( and then my dad fell asleep at 12am and forgot to come take me so thanks heaps tommmmmmmm !!!

Saturday - two parties:
1st was Jadey's.. it was a really relaxing and comfortable afternoon thanks heaps :) explored her house/garden and finally played guitar hero! i like it lots. Haha i was wondering... if her 18th is like this... what is her wedding going to be like?! The whole country is going to come..oh god we're going to have to get her a car or something that will beat all the gifts and love she showers us with.. I LOVE YOU JADEY. it's not everyday you come across someone as generous and genuine as you :)

2nd was slarkins! hahaha watching people get tipsy is funny xDDD heheh like vi.. giggle giggle etc.. we ended up wearing heels so we wouldn't get stabbed by the people partying.. and before this glor and i went to box hill to eat dumplings so yeah :D and bummed around in her new house for a bit hurray

Sunday - shopping & Crown buffet:
Yah laura woke me up early .. to go to chaddy god.. so i was unhappy because she ruined my pleasant dream and when we got to chadstone i was this moody grumpy girl who couldn't even stand on her two feet properly for about an hour.. i swear it's not what i drank last night from various people's drinks but.. also lack of sleep .. whatever .. and then i met up with Farn and i think i became fully normal after we ate. FOOD CURES EVERYTHING!! chips were nicee . we went shopping.

Went to Crown buffet. bed was then a clothes bomb. i ate a lot and high heels are painful. i'm tired....

Tomorrow: swimming, gym perhaps, dentist, bumming around

Edit...BORED

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked a cigarette.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Dumped someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class. (maybe i can't remember)
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course. (does HL count? i suppose not.)
Been in a car accident. (does my car catching on fire and burning down 10min later count?)
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino. (i'm going to do that "because i can" when i turn 18.)
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol/X Factor.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality. 

Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.  (guinea pig..?)
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school. (wtf is that)
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

I ran out of fuel

Not really. I just can't be bothered to blog anymore.

Even though a lot is going on now, i think i kept blogging because it helped me procrastinate and to get away from work. But now that school's over, i don't feel like sitting down and blogging. I think we should communicate in person instead.

I'll blog special events though :)

nananana BATMAN

Holidays are soooooooo good so far.
Day 1:
- went to PLC to give in swimming forms
- swam at Aquarena for 1.5hours and then i cbs anymore.
- bussed to Westfield and bought clothes. I also got a Batman bra how cool is that/am i ???????? :D
- bussed back home after going through that weird sandstorm kinda shit.
- party soon :)

So.. i couldn't find my cap so i swam with hair tied up anyway. And i took out my prescription goggles and omg they had broken in the middle =( And i left my pro ones somewhere...either with laura or someone.. DAMN. So i swam without cap and goggles that is ...bad. And because i closed my eyes underwater when i resurfaced i almost rammed my hands into this fat lady's butt while doing breaststroke. Hmm.. and i didn't want to swim outside so i could only swim in the SLOW lane because the MEDIUM and FAST lanes had turned into swimming classes...

And is it bad that i analyse the way other people teach swimming? I think i'm really grateful for doing Austswim under PLC, because i realise how many problems i can identify and try and fix now... whereas i was watching one class and it was turning into a disaster. One, it was a huge class (for that level) around 10 kids in a 25m pool and it's impossible to keep an eye on every kid. Secondly, she was really good with keeping them in order but this is where the structure of the pool comes in... With 25m pools you should stand on the edge and call out at them so each kid doesn't start to feel bored and therefore muck around. Or, just use half the pool and tell them to swim back and forth. So half the kids were swimming and the other half were getting bored because the teacher wasn't with them.

Going to somehow wrap this present. And write a card. And shower my hair is disgusting

IB IS DONE. ALL DONE.

Wow, now my score is finalised. fkkkkk

SCREW THAT. time to enjoy life as it should be. Going out and not feeling guilty but then realizing this means getting a job or two. Money does make things more enjoyable in this case.

Today Kristen and i celebrated end of exams by going to Chadstone. I bought presents for Farn, Slarkin and Jadey and a dress and shorts for myself :) The dress reminds me of cabarets but i'm wearing it at slarkins so you'll see. I spent just under $100 and saved $60 because of awesome sales and my skills at finding them. bahahaha I wish i could keep the presents i bought you guys, i really hope you like them. I can't photoblog them or then the surprise is ruined but a lot of thought and OMG MUST BUY impulse buying was put in :)

Now i am trying to clean up this paperbomb in every place of the house i have studied but all i've done is carefully pack away my IB Biology self written notes in a folder. You don't know how long they take unless you do Bio (especially IB bio...the subject is basically self taught). I have 15+ geog textbooks to return, biology and chemistry past papers to give back and be refunded for and hand in some notices to aquatic centre.

I'm scared that my mum will make excuses to stop me from going out so much. She can't say "get a job" because i already have one but she could say "....start music again. PRACTISE" or "go to the gym instead of seeing your friends, you're just wasting money". I don't know what she will do but it's inevitable that i can't go out if i have no money (aka no job) and we'll just see.

I have to develop photos. And frame the best ones. I love you guys :)

YEAR 12 IS OVER. FOREVER.

Edit: So i was on the bus back to Boxhill from chadstone and it got more packed on the way. I ended up sitting across a uni student who had the same Bardot shirt and phone as me and i was like oooh twin! (Just like how Joey gets excited about finding his hand twin ROFL) but then later i'm like... wtf i can see up her skirt omg please close your legs =( .. and then the bus was already stuffy because no air con and these two girls come on. Your typical "hot bitch + fat friend" who in this case is the bigger bitch kinda pair. So both had dyed their hair peroxide blonde and "fat friend" was swearing about everything and calling some random a "fkn pedophile" and other girl was like yeah okay.. haha 

Hmm..bus trips are interesting.  

accidental sleep

So i accidentally slept at 10:30pm and woke up at 3:30am. So now it is 7:19am and i have an exam at 1pm.

Well...look what Facebook provided me.

Your Daily Horoscope: November 18, 2009
Pisces Feb. 19 - Mar 20
You might be called into a special leadership role today, Pisces. Your energy is high, and you seem to hold an unusual key to success at whatever others are looking for you to do. There's a lot of energy around about devotion and self-sacrifice, and you may hear or be around someone who is very dogmatic, and lets power go to their head. Right now its as important for you to ignore that sort of behavior as it is for you to live your ideals. You also need to ignore any criticism you receive, because it is only an expression of envy.

Interpretation:
I will experience a calling from God to blast Ovid with my awesome super energy during the unseen. Not only will i succeed, but someone is going to become the new Sir Thomas More and perhaps a more arrogant Richard Rich?? Except that i'm too busy smiting Ovid to notice and sending him a last minute message to kill Tacitus before i do tomorrow, if my horoscope permits it. Yes yes, criticize me all you want stupid Roman gods, but you're just jealous that i managed to kill off these authors first. Except i think we should keep Virgil. 

I'm talking to myself, aren't i?   

art of love

I drank too much soup. WADDUP MOONPIE?! red ribbons 

I want a jumper like that. Shopping sales are everywhere but i'm still stuck in the exam room.
I crumpled my post it note. 
I need to develop photos and frame the best ones. 
I have to clear out my room. 
I dislike headaches. 
I am excited because tomtom designed me a froggy blog tee. YOU KNOW YOU WANT ONE TOO. 
I can't wait till Thursday.
I can't express how overwhelmed Tacitus makes me feel. 
I have two kinds of cake sitting on the table.
I like the idea of going out for French on sunday.
I think i need to play Zoombinis. That's all i can think about at the moment. 
I'M BATMAN. SHHH 

WTFFF

I did not bother finding a suitable picture for this post. All my pics are happy and this post is disgusting.

So around 11pm last night i shuffled off to eat a mango, tripping down the stairs as always -even though i was wearing shorts as opposed to the usual trackies. I found my beautiful mango and cut it open into three parts. Just as i had begun eating one part i spied a black spider around the size of a 5cent coin on the floor infront of me. Since i couldn't be bothered vacuuming it as i always do i reached for the mortein and sprayed it. Well it started to die and WTFFFFFFF all these baby spiders start crawling from it. Had i forgotten that mummy spiders actually carry their babies with them?? Do they?! Or was this spider carrying out mitosis in its death???? Well whatever the hell was happening i sprayed more and then left the massacre on the ground. So i washed my hands and finished eating the rest of the mango, thinking "Oh god. This is bad karma. I can see the spider souls flying up to spider heaven now. And now i'm going to be attacked by a spider in my bed or in my next mango." LIKE WTF. So now i will always vacuum spiders.

And then i went back and tripped up the stairs.


Latin exam starts tomorrow and ends Thursday 10:35am. I am beginning to dread it and i haven't finished cramming.

Oh yes. Dot Liu - my biggest silent reader fan. I think you should make a facebook after your exams at least. And even better, A BLOG. 

little minions

Cramming latin. sorry can't talk. bed is full of clothes. weather is getting better.
i'm excited the end is near i can't wait.
All i can think about is Big Bang Theory. i didn't eat as much today woohoo
the end is near. the beginning of real holidays are about to begin.
why do i have a translation of "human counsels" in Tacitus what other kind of counsels were you expecting???
i need a second job. i will get that second job.
i will stop drinking so much soup.
i had 8 dumplings today i think i need to pee
you are my followers. (funny how it's not readers)
I really need to relieve my bladder.
This is bad, now i imagine drawing the female reproductive system and the bladder and then the urethra and this is stupid
I should go now.

That was a strange post.


Edit: OMGOMGOMG
I am so excited for after exams even though i don't finish till Thursday 10:35am !!!!! Obviously learning Tacitus isn't very important atm but these holidays are going to be so good.

I already have the beginning of freedom planned: 
- shopping spree (i have a list already)
- parties
- crown buffet
- working again and perhaps a 2nd job
-  swimming at 8am-10am everyday 
- scour the newspaper for musicals to watch. James, you're coming with me. Anyone else?
- revisit the cello and piano. Sav, where are those double piano concertos we were going to do?
- have a doggy day with Kristen and her puppy
- take Espresso and Cino greyhound racing again.
- and if i get super bored i'll go to the arcades like i did 3 times a week in primary school

Basically, there is no reason to stay at home on msn. Until then, DIE TACITUS DIE.

PSP charger status: Lost

Poo. I must stop watching Big Bang Theory and start memorising up to chapter 52 in Tacitus today. I hate this. So i'm watching behind the scenes stuff.

You people make me broke. But broke with love i suppose. 5 birthday parties or something in 3 days? Present shopping is fun but i need to start working again.

Edi informed me about working at Aquarena and you know, if i work for 3.5hrs at PLC and Aquarena once a week (because you can work in 3.5hr+ shifts) then i will get around $140/week. Not bad right? Heh. Teaching is fun so if any of you are short of money i suggest you teach something.

Also, i'm thinking of changing to a new blog layout after exams. And i think that the following people should also be part of the blogging community: Fiona, Swango, Dot :)

hmm

People need to blog more. Enough said. 

Gravity, thou art a heartless bitch

Latin is so boring so i've been watching Big Bang Theory for 2 hours now. I need to wash my face and it feels like a holiday but not......

I just realised i haven't eaten breakfast. Laura's making a mango smoothie i think and she got a blog! 


Those drinks look so refreshing. Maybe i should've blogged later in the day when i've actually done something. OMG MAYBE THERE IS A SATURDAY MORNING MOVIE ON CHANNEL 72 NOW TO WATCH. That means i will move downstairs to work! And i'll be closer to the fridge okay where is this going .... 

Goodbye, squishy icecreams.  

Friday the 13th

Yerp.

So after geog i've done nothing all day except sleep uncomfortably, sit outside, watching tv, eating and maybe do some latin grammar.

Omg i have the tv on mute right now so i can "work" before watching Better Homes and Gardens...and i hate those workplace ads. The ones where the girl stupidly puts her hand into the slicing machine and other stupid incidents and i can't bear to look at stuff like that. So i thought a similar ad came on so i hid behind my laptop screen but it was actually one of those ice coffee BRING IT ON ads. blah 

Woohoooo i want congee. And yay tv program is on now. This crispy snack is so good. 

well...

That geog paper was okay...not good not bad but okay ...

But i don't think i'll be getting a 7 overall. If i do then the examiner must be drunk. I feel stupid for not preparing enough. When i could have easily aced this compared to latin.

Whatever. I have 4 days to study for latin now. Compared to half a day of cramming 2 out of the 4 topics for geog paper 2. My nose hurts.

doomed

....Geography just spells doom. I have decided that there is even more to know than biology. why why why why

Why does it have to start at 8:30am and not 1pm ????? i need more time to cram.

If 2 questions yesterday took 7 pages. then today will take 14 pages. If i find something to write that is.

I don't feel like dying just yet........

11 out of 14 !!

Edit: Dreading geog paper 2 so much. too much info. settlements is so hard. this is ridiculous.

YAYAYA almost there. English paper 2 was really good today it was probably the best essay i ever wrote in exam conditions. And that's actually something because... usually i sit there for 20min wondering which question i should do and then another 10min trying to figure out what i should write. Thank god i did my WL2 on A Doll's House.

Geog paper 1 was alright but not 100% confident about getting every question correct. Dreading paper 2 tomorrow. 

Some people have finished. Did you know our biology paper 3 goes to Vienna? And other papers go to Israel, USA etc? How cool is that they go all around the Northern Hemisphere !!! Today Sav jumped out of her seat and started jumping up and down after her last exam (eng) hahaa

Everyday i have two lunches. A wrap and then this bowl of rice 1 hour later. Yes, my brain cells are hungry as well. 

My mum's making me wear skirts now. But i do have nice floral skirts that are flowy except i don't understand why. So now everytime i sit funny during the exam i have to pull my skirt down or yes. I wonder what the supervisors think. 

...you have learnt to flatter!

Biology paper 3 was pretty good although i dropped a few marks regarding the effects of THC on the brain and i forgot an example of herbivory so i made it up. English paper 1...the passages they gave us didn't exactly leap out at me. I did the poem because the prose was too dry to tackle i couldn't squeeze anything remotely interesting from my brain. Hopefully the passages picked for SL were good :) 

And i feel doomed for English paper 2 tomorrow. But it will work out. 

I just slept for 3 hours.......now i only have 3 hours to cram for English. I have Geography paper 1 tomorrow as well. 

(My mind is actually blank right now. I think it's digging itself a hole to either bury myself in tomorrow or drill in A Doll's House and MFAS. Crucible will be my backup.)

according to you

thankyou james for finding me song <33>bio papers 1 and 2 was good. it's hot. i'm wearing no pants and i cbs studying for paper 3 yet. er you didn't have to know that. sorry. (not really but like...)

I hate it when msn forces you to download the new version. like why the hell is it taking so long? i even unticked everything except email. 

Edit: "According to You - Orianthi" 

9 exams to go

Hehe cuteeeeeeeeee

Today is biology day and after 1hour i'm bored already so i came upstairs to blog! When mum  leaves to go to work i'm going to find something interesting to watch on tv... not good idea right.. considering tomorrow is biology papers 1 and 2 ==

I hope you methods, eco and history kids are acing your exams atm! i should be studying but meh. I was watching playschool before and was grateful for all the awesome shows that still existed when we were young. I don't like the kiddy shows now. 

I decided that i will eat less. Sometimes i live on soup the whole day so i have like 5 bowls and other times i just eat raisin toast and avocado. And yesterday i ate a quarter of a cheesecake hmmmm....... actually i'll just stop eating the cake. and continue eating everything else.

oh and Happy 6 months mop :)  

Edit: Look what i found in past Subject Reports HAHA

IB examiner report: Whenever the structure of the male or female reproductive system has been set in IB Biology exams, the quality of drawings has ranged from excellent to worryingly inaccurate. The cervix would often have been unable to carry out its functions if it had the structure represented. Ectopic pregnancies would have been the norm rather than the exception in many cases....

zoom in. click on it

Edit: People with hayfever...STAY AWAY FROM ME. This is my pet peeve. I cannot stand it when people sneeze 7 times in a row. 3 times is okay. More than 5 and i won't be standing anywhere near you until you've recovered. 

I know this sounds mean but i hate it. Just like how some people can't tolerate rudeness or spitting at all. ......I just realised that everyone suffers either way during Spring/Summer. You either have a sore nose and red eyes or you have to put up with people like my dad who sneeze so the whole neighbourhood can hear. fkn hell 

red fingernails

Laura painted my nails a lovely, glossy red. It's only on one hand though. There was nothing interesting to watch on tv today so i started reading Brisingr again.

Some people do stupid things at the expense of their community. In Aberfan in South Wales, the government decided to dump their coal waste in a steep valley above their town. When heavy rainfall added weight to the waste tip which reduced any internal cohesion in it, it naturally triggered slope failure and a mudflow holding 100,000 cubic metres of material. This engulfed part of the town and killed 147 people and the council finally decided it would be a good time to lower the waste tips and dump them elsewhere. This was in 1966. 

But you know, sometimes adding extra weight on land considered unsafe is unavoidable. For example, from 1948 to 1998, Hong Kong experienced rapid urbanisation which forced newcomers to live on unsafe slopes. Torrential rainstorms then triggered massive landslides due to inadequacies of hillside construction. 

It is also easier to predict volcano eruptions than earthquakes. This is because earthquakes can happen in fault lines not even known to mankind until they occur. To predict earthquakes you monitor for signs of pre shocks, observe levels of ground water, map epicentres and frequencies of previous earthquakes to derive a possible time pattern and detect electrical signals from underground. Some people even look out for unusual animal behaviour.

With volcanoes, there are more obvious signs like tremors increasing within the volcano. As magma rises, so do ground temperatures - and these can be detected by satellites using heat seeking cameras or measuring temperatures of nearby lakes. The rising magma also causes volcanoes to swell and bulge so you measure slope angles and just before the eruption, the volcano will emit increasing amounts of gas and steam - although i think it's a bit late to run if you figure you're just about to die.

I hope that was as educational to you as it was for my cramming for Geography. If you bothered to read it, that is. I expect the next post to be on Biology later in the day. 

Heartache - chapter 35

"You, you are, you're a great deal too good for me, and I'm so grateful to you, and so proud and fond of you, I don't know why I can't love you as you want me to. I've tried, but I can't change the feeling, and it would be a lie to say I do when I don't."

"Really, truly, Jo?"

He stopped short, and caught both her hands as he put his question with a look that she did not soon forget.

"Really, truly, dear."

They were in the grove now, close by the stile, and when the last words fell reluctantly from Jo's lips, Laurie dropped her hands and turned as if to go on, but for once in his life the fence was too much for him. So he just laid his head down on the mossy post, and stood so still that Jo was frightened. "

- - - - - - - - - - - - 

Laurie dashed into a livelier strain, played stormily for several minutes, and would have got through bravely, if in a momentary lull Mrs. March's voice had not been heard calling, "Jo, dear, come in. I want you."

Just what Laurie longed to say, with a different meaning! As he listened, he lost his place, the music ended with a broken chord, and the musician sat silent in the dark.

"I can't stand this," muttered the old gentleman. Up he got, groped his way to the piano, laid a kind hand on either of the broad shoulders, and said, as gently as a woman, "I know, my boy, I know."

No answer for an instant, then Laurie asked sharply, "Who told you?"

"Jo herself."

I am reading Little Women again because mass movement is boring me. This is the most memorable but second most hated section of the book for me. The whole of chapter 35 is painful for me to read. I really loved Laurie and Jo together.  The part i hate most is when Laurie married Amy in the end.  

If you've read the book, maybe you will understand how i feel or even agree/disagree. I thought they were perfect together - tomboyish and fun despite their short tempers. I dislike the love he and Amy shares. There is no fire in it.  

I remember when i was 9, i almost burst into angry tears when i finally realised Laurie would never be with Jo. I think i even fell off my couch. 

gah

I've done nothing so far. It's not even 10am and i'm watching an Audrey Hepburn film. I had two toasts with avocado on it. 

This film is good. 

So much more interesting than studying geography. or biology. or whatever. GAH 

toffee apple

Today is a good day. Paper 2 maths was good although i barely finished in time - they really need to give us 15 more min. I hope it will push up my Paper 1... 

This is my list of things to do after exams:

- start swimming teaching again and apply at Aquarena as well 

- get a second job in Borders because i feel like it

- start driving again

- go to the beach 

- go to a hundred parties

- have a good time in HK, Canada and USA

- eat every hour (who wants to come eat buffets with me?)

- Disney, Pokemon & FRIENDS marathon/sleepover

- shop shop shop

- hide chemistry, maths, latin etc forever. 

- i should really lose weight shouldn't i/get fit. okay i'll try but i cbf atm 

- buy a nice dress

- go out to eat in all those cafes/bistros i read in newspapers. sigh (if i ever find them that is)

- No, i am not selling my books. My notes are even more valuable.

Yay my next exam is on tuesday so a 3 day break. I have 3 subjects next week and the phone keeps ringing WHO IS THIS STOP CALLING ME 

Edit: i hate being plagued by silly mistakes or errors i'm not aware of. so rushed at end of exam today didn't really get to check i just assumed i got them right because i did the first 7 questions rather slowly. whatever. it's done. 

NO MORE MATHS !!!!!!!!!!!! (except statistic in biology.........)

urgh

I am so over exams. I've done 4 out of 14 so far and all i do is worry about the stupid mistakes i made afterwards. Or mistakes i'm not even aware of. 

Please please in HL chem make the grade boundaries lower. and please please let me make up any stupid mistakes in paper 2 maths. I think i got the whole 8 mark thing in last question wrong in paper 1. and some... bits i was unsure about in some other questions. URGH i need a 7 

So after dropping off Sav i went to Pines... and laura and i wandered around and saw TOMLOO who was too busy listening to his music with inbuilt earphones to hear me =( and then mum came so i had to go. 

I still haven't done any work. I should start now... for stupid paper 2 maths. I need to collect more biology past papers. I have like none compared to all my other subjects. 

eeh..

I feel so tired. 

Someone bring me those tea mugs now. Maths is draining it is so boring i cannot be bothered. I have done 3 out of 14 exams so far. Can you believe that we will be free in 1-2 weeks...? :D YAY

On another note, i am up to 1500 profile views! Whew! 

Edit: What do you think?

o.O

Now that i think of it ..... 

Chem HL was actually pretty shit. I'm happy with Section B though.

Edit: yes. life is not good at the moment. little things explode into big load of marks being lost. why the hell is chem out of 180 marks ????? and why can i only lose like none.....

Edit2: oh and THANKYOU for all the good luck texts people :) That's what i will look at when i feel depressed or doubting myself. and QLD people, i'll add you on msn cos it's cheaper than sms.

Edit3: Paper 3 was really good. 

and now we plunge...

into the reality of IB... I guess the 2nd message today is:

1. Do it all. Write everything that comes to your head even if it sounds stupid because seriously, the markscheme has the stupidest answers sometimes. In geog, i've learned to not assume that the examiners know what i'm on about but instead write as if they're stupid. (and then i get my extra 10+ marks...) 

2. Somehow realise that your ENTER does not define you/your life. I know it's going to define me for a while, especially if i don't do too well. But there are heaps of pathways in life right? Right..?

3. Stay together. We are IB and we will always be part of the IB family we have created in these 2 years :)

Good Luck people :) We can do this!

and now i have to return to studying chem so i don't actually FAIL it 

Edit: I'm scared.

oh wth....

CHEM EXAM IS IN ONE DAY. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tues - chem paper 1,2

Wed - chem paper 3

Edit: Listen to this song. Keep Forgetting (to Forget About You) - JoJo

hanging out to dry

Some of the nicest people you meet are in your dreams. 

I like stationery shopping. Everytime i go to HK i spend $1000HK+ on it. 

I finally have "unlimited" internet back. 

My worst habits are judging people on the spot, putting things off and feeling insecure.

My best quality is being able to bond with nearly everyone. 

I ran out of wite out. It left an oil stain on my paper.

Everyday i wake up bored. 

19th of November. Liberation.

In the car, i like to blink everytime we pass the middle of two poles. 

I have Pokemon mousepads and a pink giraffe one. 

Listen to Big Bang's new song "Let me Hear Your Voice" 

I keep trying to refrain myself from blogging. But it's inevitable that the world has to know about my life or it doesn't feel right. 

Lastly, my Wicked mug broke. But that's not all. I think my mum even threw it away. WHY JUST WHY. 

:(

Actually stressed..worried.. frustrated.. scared...whatever you call it. 

I have to get my head around Chem paper 3 somehow ... VERY SOON. 

not good not feeling good this is not good 

i feel like bursting out.

I get it but it doesn't stay. I need better study habits.