i need a second job

Hello peoples :) 

I was browsing Forever New online today... this dress is cute. 

Although i want to see a close up of those heels..  

I really like the shade of her blue jeans. Her cardigan is nice too except.... the price isn't =(

And i still want this dress... even though it's probably part of the old stock now. But that means it will show up in DFO etc right?? 

I don't know i have to restrain myself from shopping till next friday when my exams are over :)

(and i actually studied a bit today hehehe) 

I like the loosely folded collar whatever you call it.. part of her dress. LOL i wasn't meant to be a fashion blogger.. just look at my terrible wording. 

  

Can't even get the terms right xD

...or maybe i'm just fob. nooooooo 

Haha okay i go now. Back to stupid biology.  

hip song

"I want you to know

If the sky fell tomorrow

If the sun didn't bother to show

Here's where i want to be"

- Today was pretty chill.

- Last night i was scaring myself with the unpredictability of death. Not good. 

- I am grateful for toilet paper. I've run out and now have to use up my tissue box. If that runs out i'll have to scrunch up scrap paper then o.O LOL

- I don't normally like dark chocolate but Lindt Blueberry Intense dark chocolate now has its place in my room...

This is hip song rock tonight.

It is too hot. 

Now it is too cold. 

Today i was bored so i dressed up and walked around in heels. 

faerie

title inspired by Kristen's unfinished (?) poem

I read something interesting on the thermodynamics of honeybees today! In Asia, large wasps invade the colonies of honeybees to get larvae for their young. They kill the guard honeybees and then mine the nest for larvae. However, the honeybees have developed a special defense against the invading wasps by huddling around them in a huge ball and release heat with temperatures up to 45.7 degrees and "cook" the wasps to death. The honeybees can survive up to 50.7 degrees. 

Cool huh?  

tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye ... 

:D

Last day of Semester 1 for Melb Uni today :) woohoo!

On another note, who's coming along to Aa Semester 1 End Of Exams Party! (June 25 at 10:00pm) and/or MELB UNI MIDYEAR "When I grow up..!! party (July 7 at 9:00pm) ?

Now to fully nerd for the next 11 days. arghhhhhh 

I want those H1s. And at least a pass/credit in Physics. oh god.

Edit: some people are SO stupid. who the fk jokes about that ??? 

wacky

So... i was trying to make use of today's sunny weather. (which ended 10min later) And i couldn't even see the laptop screen thanks to the blaring sun so when i got back inside i discovered this rather... interesting picture of Espresso. rofl 

this pic is weird... i don't even know why i'm putting this up. 

And then my pupil disappeared o.O LOL i guess it was just too bright outside... 

Work was good. I moved a few kids up woop! (swimming levels)

imprinted

don't you think she looks a BIT like anne hathaway? (lol reminds me of Alice in Wonderland)

I was so naive. 

I thought it would be like high school again -

or at least this part. 

Others told me from the start

that they 

would be leaving end of 

semester.

But then i met you and you and you. 

And I thought

that our lives would continue 

to grow into each others.

For at least more than a semester... 

even till the end of three

years.

And now you tell me you are going. 

This is not like high school. 

Why did i ever assume it was. 

Sad smiley face. 

Good luck pursuing your dreams overseas

people. 

I hope we meet again. 

(Because msn & facebook do not suffice.)

green tea icecream

This song was in my head the wholeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee day. 

coming together

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do, I'll still feel you here 

'til the moment I'm gone.

"Gravity" - Sara Bareilles 

The List

...of what i'm going to do after exams

Since i finish on the 11th June... here goes: 

- go shopping

- get more driving hours (currently on 68 hours)

- cook more (going to make this berry ricotta hotcakes)

- go to morning/night markets

- get more work shifts

- watch lots of movies/drama/anime

- go to a sleepover

- exercise frequently (most important)

- drag people out to see me (your final exam is at the end of june/early july - get over it) 

- wait for people to finish exams

- not sleep

- go ice skating 

The list is ongoing. 

But yay! And now i must self discipline myself for the next 2-3 weeks.... 

;)

I know you like that.  

Melbourne needs water theme parks like this..........

playground

Too tired to recap what i did today...which was a lot. Hopefully you guys find my life as interesting as i do....rofl

  

Highlights:

- Falling asleep in Physics, Chem & Bio...hehe
- Eating udon noodles by the Yarra River with feet dangling over the berth. What a nice day

- My butt still hurts from sitting in the baby swing in playground near Fed Square...

- Exploring Block Arcade (Kristen, i'm taking you here next time) 
- Finding $4.50 soup and $2.50 Belgium waffles :)  

- Getting a pretty good mark in Physics assignment (most people barely passed)

- Sitting in sun/cold watching randoms play soccer and working on essay  

- Swimming staff meeting/workshop 

- Eating lots of free pizza :D

N.B - Steve thought i ate udon noodles by myself today. LOL nooo... was with Pricilla, Jason & Cary :) 

what can i say...

I love Melbourne Uni :) 

Probably the epiphany of the week apart from understanding some physics in one go. Went to Lygon Street for lunch today... i reckon Sofia's spaghetti bolognaise is better. The Hulk was on this afternoon and i don't like that movie so i fell asleep in my beanbag instead. 

I need to go eat dinner now.  

mondays are the best

so entrancing...don't you think?

Hmm... what did i do today. I found Fiona on the way to Physics and then found 10 familiar people around me in the Physics lecture. Now that felt good. 

Had a good nap in chem and bio... and then Swango and i found beef and chicken calzones to eat and the bread was fluffy on the inside and tasted like pizza! Watched people play pool and decided to asian squat in a circle in the bar until the asian lady decided to give us some stools lol. 

I actually spent 2 hours researching and outlining my breadth essay today :) Then i went to find others for our weekly catchup till 6-7pm in Brownless Library. Today's group was even bigger and we spent the majority of the time playing Truth or Dare on Edi's iphone. Hehe

And then I took advantage of Jacky's offer and got him to also buy Swango a Coconut Milk drink with Sago :) Hehehe and then we found super cheap sushi on the way back to QV so i bought Jacky some..rofl

I just showered. I feel soooooo good right now.  

muddled

Thanks James :) haha at the perving in men's bathroom

Why do people have best friends?

Do you need them?

Then how come i don't feel the need to have one...
Or seem to have one... 

I'm happy with a bunch of (very) close friends instead. 

And why do people always fall in love with their best friend in some movies and books? 

Do people marry their best friend or not?

Who really is your best friend? 

eyebags

:( Farn was right. I did have (darker) eyebags today!!!  Nooooooo must catch up on sleep and i don't know... rofl. Stop sleeping at 2-3am.... ?

Today was a good day :D 

Finished uni at 12, physics test was soso, discovered a dance studio at the top of Union House (Melb Uni is slowly becoming more and more like Hogwarts...), went hunting for tights and found the cheapest ones at Cotton on, chilled with various people, walked around the city, trained back home with Gloria and then went out to eat malay :) 

Wish i could've gone hot pot with you guys though =( 

And now i should go shower. And continue reading this physics book....


Edit: oh mannn... just read stuff and realised i lost 6 marks on easiest q ever!!!! thought it was nodes and not antinodes! fk ! and not counting the other crap i actually did not know...

oh well. only worth 5% :( Now i really want to make up for my stupidity in the exam.  

hmm..

:( 

Espressoooooooooooo :( 

how to "nomnomnom"

Hehe :) Thanks Steve for showing me this. 

an interesting day

I woke up today feeling unusually drained. I swear it was the dream last night which i can't even remember. It made me so tired i couldn't even keep my eyes open after my 9am tute and ended up sleeping till 12pm.... 

But then i agreed to eat korean at Oriental Spoon with Jacky, Mandy and Dot (i swear these guys are the base of my friendship groups at melb uni haha) and spicy food is gooooood. Hmm. 

And then after biology tute i fell asleep again for two hours in a beanbag.... And woke up the time my physics prac started (5:15pm) oops... So after racing to David Caro building i realised i needed to pee... And after i had peed, i realised there was no toilet paper left. 

WTH. Bad timing much. 

But it's okay. I found a crumpled tissue in my bag. Sigh

And the rest of my day was like any other physics prac day.... overjoyed if you finish early and driving home from uni. My brain isn't working.

something is wrong with me

What is a good analogy for trust? I could use an ice cube to represent each layer of "trust" gone as it melts. Or i could imagine myself as a brick wall that needs mortar to replace the crumbling. 

If so, then i need a lot of mortar. I need a lot of superglue to make sure I stay together forever. No one wants to live in an unstable house. And I don't like dealing with an insecure mind. 

I hate not being able to completely trust you like before. Because i really do want to.

But it eats me up to the extent that i need every proof of your love. It makes me question things i never bothered myself with before. 

Why does trust take so long to build again? How long is this phase going to last?

:)

Happy Mother's Day :) Went out for dinner with family friends, ate cake, gave present, drove to Kew blah blah.... heh

Also, Happy 1 Year Farn =)

Super Junior 2010 comeback

I am so excited =D  But apparently only 10 of the 13 will feature in it... =( 

Today i attended an auction down my court today. It ended up being passed in for private selling. Also came back from Joanne's korean bbq & hot pot. Lots and lots of camwhoring haha

I need more basics. But a really nice one that you can dress up or down. I'm thinking black singlet/tank top... I'm going to look for one in Valleygirl or Bardot soon .... 

I've done 64 hours 30min driving now :)

slowly ...

I think i just lost some respect for you. You've changed. This is simply disgraceful and even hypocritical. 

And i know it's not going to stop anytime soon because you seem a bit "broken" inside to me... And i almost feel guilty for not wanting to help/protect you but it appears that you're bringing it all onto yourself.  

We could be better friends if we let each other in more. And I will always be there for you. 

But i cannot approve of this. 

:D

Not much to report today... except that i stapled my jumper instead of the paper =( 

I also seriously needed to pee by the end of my shift except no...that would not be good. The pool was really cold today though...

Where can i buy cheap patterned tights? The black ones with interesting holes. Sportsgirl, even with $5 off, still comes to $11 minimum. I also bought my mum a mother's day gift :) Chanel makeup yay. Cost me a fortune though sigh. 

Hmm. I'm looking forward to seeing some of you ppls tomorrow :)

i don't like tuesdays

Who wants to spend 5-6 incredible weeks with me this semester break? I finish exams on the 11th of June. (super early i know). Four exams in 3 days with physics and breadth on the last day. Urgh. But at least biology is first. And chemistry comes in nicely at second. 

I think i'll get a second job during then.... I am so broke right now. Meant to buy 3 presents this week howwwwwww i no moneyyyyy =(

Currently on 62 hours 40min for driving :) 

blue, light blue, dark blue

 I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart ~ 

I am happy now :) 

Thankyou to everyone who listened or cared for me during the past few days. 

Today Jacky shouted me an icecream from the shop at the bottom of the escalators into mc food court. (outside). It had 3 flavours (Toblerone, Green Tea & Biscuit) and it was yummy. Jacky eats his icecream way too fast. 

I was also super stoned today... 5 hours sleep or less and i get asked if i'm okay/lost. Blah 

I'm waiting for my exam timetable now... i am so screwed. I can't afford to fail Physics or it will muck up all my plans.... 

Have i updated you guys on my tripping status lately? I tripped over a hoolahoop the other day and then fell up the stairs after dropping my slice of camembert =( Fail. 

mixed feelings

Can somebody 

tell me

what constitutes as 

right or wrong in this 

situation...

Am i too forgiving?

...

I don't know whether

to stay away from you

or not. 

Or am i quick to forgive

because

i want to...?

Sigh...I'm just praying 

that 

regardless of what just happened,

You (still?) need me 

just as much 

As i need you.    

don't want to wake up from you

confused

There are so many things wrong with me. All i can do is curl up in bed and cry and continue to fail at explaining what's wrong. 

I feel so stupid. Everything is obviously not alright and i still want to keep this barrier up. 

But I think i've figured it out. I'm just so scared of losing you (to somebody, anybody else) that inside i've broken down and realised how fragile things can suddenly become.

I am so, so sorry for being like this.