pretty.

Ice skating looks so beautiful. Fine, pretty. But it DOES seem "beautiful". I call a lot of things pretty and cute though. Some music is beautiful. And so is ice skating. The man who danced to "You raised me up" (female singer version) was one of the best. To me. If i did a winter sport, i would either do snowboarding/ice skating/ or that thing where you have no skis and you go up a gigantic curved slope and do twists and hopefully come back down with a perfect landing. What is that sport called?

My mum didn't let me watch all of the figure skating. I have so much homework to do. I am prepared to fail every test but i made a promise to myself, that i would study this year. For the whole of the year, in fact. I am not learning anything in latin, and i wish Ms Brooke was back. I WANT TO BE IN HER CLASS AGAIN. Mrs Ondracek was sucky. Even though Ms Puls is a billion times nicer, i'm not learning anything this year. What a shame. French is so awkward. I actually have to listen to what the teacher says now. I cannot eat lollies, chew gum, write poems or pass diary notes with an imaginary Helene friend now. I miss having Helene in my french class. We used to laugh so much, and she didn't poke me as much either GAH. But i have Yi-ling and Steph so it's still pretty good i guess. But i have turned to talking to myself mostly in French anyway, since our class is so small and quiet and it is not as fun as last years.

The Notebook is quite a sad movie but it isn't THAT sad. Why is everyone crying over it? I am being a hypocrite. Yes, i cried myself in one scene but i had good enough reason to, right.. Everybody else seemed to cry in every scene or something like that. How dramatic. Strangely though, i cried in a very awkward way. Damnit. Nevermind. I am very heartless.

Judaism. RE is being mean to me. I have lost my english book "killing aurora" HAHA. Or maybe it's under my bed. I have no idea! >< I have a $150 JB-HI FI voucher. *beams* What should i buy?

I downloaded "All i want for christmas is you". It is so good that i am very happy.

That didn't make sense. i sound so fob. i really want to know how to talk fob with that accent HAHA. it sounds so funny. whenever i talk chinese my english has a very bad accent did you know? it is rather humiliating. i just want to know how to say it for fun ^^

LEARN TO LOVE.

I hate fake people. Where is the love? Where is the voice inside you? You are blank, insecure and nothing. What is of your life? Do you not laugh? Do you not smile? What are you looking for? Another hole to hide all your regrets in? Why do you always cry? What is wrong? Happiness will come, but you are seeking it blindly. What pains you? Have you felt pain before? How do you cry, when you have nothing to cry about? Why do you weep, when you have not been hurt? Who do you carry that fake smile for, everyday?

I look at others, and i see happiness and determination in their eyes. And then i look at you, and i find only fear. What do you fear? You are not alone. You are not unloved. You are not brought down, cringing with pain. You are misunderstood. Who knows you? No one. Do you know yourself? We know you better than you know your own self.

I find it so strange, how one can love a 'fake' person. For you are loving nothing, no one at all. What are you? Who are you? Insecurity at its worst. Be beautiful, be bold, be happy. BE LOVED FOR WHO YOU REALLY ARE.

You are fake. You are just lies and self pity. I despise fake people. Not the actual person of course, but what envelops them. Why are you so useless? Why are you like this? What is pain to you? What is it like? Does it hurt? Or do you just cry because you are afraid of a fear you do not know of. I hate you.

I do not hate anyone in particular.

You don't know how to smile. You don't know how to love. You don't even know what your own voice sounds like. Or maybe you do know. Then why do you hide it? You can't hide forever. What are you trying to do? Talk to me. Smile with me. Can you cry? Do you taste your tears and try to eat your guilt away?

WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS. I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

Pain. Have you ever been hurt? Maybe not like we have. Or maybe you have. What do you believe in? Love? Happiness? Even trust? I'll tell you what hurts so much.

What hurts the most is the fact that we can still love you THAT MUCH, but none of us can trust you at all.

Who are you?

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i don't hate many things. nothing at all, most of the times. except for my computer.

i've decided to write a story.. dialogue type.. i was going to do it with the topic yi-ling suggested. dumping gf/bf but after a few attempts i realised it was kinda hard haha.. so i will do it on another scene...

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*on the phone*
" I can't wait for this afternoon, David! I'm so nervous though! "

" Ahh.. my darling. I am just as exhilirated as you are, be sure of that. But please, calm down. Your wedding dress hasn't even been made. "

" Oh no! What will i wear?! Our wedding is in exactly three hours! "

" ...You look fine in anything you wear, Hazel. And it doesn't matter. Only our parents will be attending the wedding. There is nothing to worry about. "

" Oh yes, i forgot that i have no friends. Anyway, i have to go now. I love you! "

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" Priest, what is the matter? Why are you so pale? Are you getting a heart attack? You can't just DIE on my wedding day! You're supposed to be marrying David and me! And if YOU die i would most probably have to conduct the funeral service. And i'm dressed in hot pink. How could you do this to me! "

" .... Ahem. Miss Taoon i have some.. very unfortunate news for you. "

" oh. "

" get in the car. we're going somewhere. "

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" Oh my lord! David, how could you !! "

" .... "

" David, speak to me. Why are you not breathing. This is stupid. TALK TO ME, YOU FOOL. THIS IS OUR WEDDING DAY. We practiced saying I DO. Not lying in the middle of the road, trying to slow down your heart rate. You're an idiot, darling. "

" Ahem, Miss Taoon. Unfortunately your husband to be died in a car crash on his way to your wedding..... "

" I can't believe this, David. I know you always wanted to be an actor, but right now is not the time. I COMMAND YOU TO 'COME ALIVE' AGAIN. "

" ..... "

" Didn't you hear me?! He's dead... "

" ... What on earth are you waiting for, David. Oh my gosh, will you PLEASE WAKE UP. The ambulance was just about to run over you, did you know? "

" ...... "

" Why will you not wake up.. come back to me... "

" He's dead.......... "

" Doctor, i think something is wrong with his hearing. Maybe he can not hear me because things are stuck up his ears. Why is he so still, so cold Doctor? "

" MISS TAOON, FOR A LADY LIKE YOU, YOU ARE QUITE THICK. MR DAVID TANG HAS PASSED INTO THE NEXT DIMENSION, VIA A CAR CRASH. HIS EARS ARE WORKING PERFECTLY WELL, FROM WHAT I HEAR FROM THE ANGELS. "

" Oh.. my.. god. DAVID HOW COULD YOU?! YOU HAVE DESTROYED ME. I WILL NEVER LOVE ANOTHER MAN AS I HAVE LOVED YOU EVER AGAIN. WHAT SINS HAVE I COMMITTED, THAT HAVE LED TO SUCH CATASTROPHE?! "

" ... i think she finally got the idea. "

" yes, she's singing her prayer to the clouds.... "

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and i can't be bothered writing anymore... wensi can finish it off for me haha. this one is the worst out of the 3 i have done so far... oh well ^^


.... HOW VERY CRAP HAHAHAHA.

...and then the boat capsized.

Imagine. Valentines Day. The night is clear and you are on a stupid cruise. No, let me rephrase that. You and your lover are dining on the wooden floor, sitting on deck chairs and eating lobster.

Ah, so many mistakes. Cupid struck a wrong bow there.

Let us start again. Yes, my imagination, randomness and me. We are united. We are plural. We are the very air that surrounds your confused self.



Ignore that.


" My dorsal fin is stuck in something, Gahgah. "

" Indeed so, my friend. In fact, you are the cause for many innocent men and women to drown right before our eyes in the middle of no where. Even better, on 14th february. Valentines Day. "

" What is your problem? What right do you have to accuse me of the mere cluster growing around us? They look more like giant fish to me. "

" I have every right. Your dorsal fin somehow impaled itself through the bottom of the ship that was sailing above us not long ago. Obviously water would have come in and filled the boat. "

" Well, it is not my fault that the stupid people could not swim. Or learn to float. "

" They were here to dine and propose or whatever silly things they get up to on Valentines Day, Luah. Not to swim. Obviously you are not aware of what wondrous things do go on during 14th February.... "

" They should have gotten a room on solid ground then! Of all things, how on earth did my fin get stuck into this boat?! `Tis killing me. "

" I don't know. "

" Shuttup and get me out of here. "

" I like you. "

" ....WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY? "

" Nothing. "

" I like you too. "

" ....This is stupid. "

" No! You are stupid! Now get me out of here. Without touching me. I hate being touched. "

" What the hell. You're crazy. "




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Okay, whatever happened up there i really don't know. I just read it, and it's so lame. Don't worry.. my english isn't really that bad.. And i hate writing dialogue in stories. Well, never that much. Unless it's really really good dialogue. That insults the other but in a humourous way. Obviously i cannot do that, and i don't intend to either.

Think of moles. Dream of moles. (the err beauty spot kind) . I actually spent ten minutes researching on moles today. Because Mandeeh and i had a sudden fascination about them. Apparently she is attracted to the moles on Mrs Reid's back. How disgusting! But yeah..

DMP will kill me soon. I can't afford to miss that many classes this year. It's getting more serious. Even RE with Judaism and yeah.. One thousand words minimum. On a book. That's just great. Why can't we swap the word limit with DMP's...

Happy Valentines Everyone. Love you all. God bless you. May you not end up swimming for your life.

whatever you want it to be.

*ribbet* ^^

I AM GOING TO WRITE IN CAPSLOCK.

ACCELERATION MATHS GIVES TOO MUCH HW. I FEEL DEAD AND DRAINED. EVERYTHING IS DUE ON TUESDAY. KIND OF. THE WORLD HAS GONE MAD. I HAVE GONE MAD. THE CITY OF MELBOURNE IS FALLING AND I CAN'T EVEN MAKE MY NAME OUT OF A PERIODIC TABLE. and katherine can gah. AND I AM INSANE. WE DID BACK FLIPS IN SWIMMING TODAY AND IT WAS SO STUPID. NADIA AND I DECIDED TO NOT DO IT, AND THE GRADE SIXES THIS YEAR ARE BEING MEAN TO ME AND MAKE ME CRY. not... BUT THEY ARE REALLY STUCK UP. THE LITTLE BALLOONS. baboons. bastards. CRAB MEAT. ><

PLC RNA SERVER IS SCREWING UP ON ME. I AM REALLY TIRED. MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 35 DAYS. CAMP IS IN 30 DAYS OR SO. WHO IS GOING TO CAMP. I DON'T WANT TO END UP BEING ALONE. CAMP IS NO FUN WITHOUT OTHER PEOPLE TO DIE WITH YOU.

I WONDER IF CAPITAL LETTERS LOOK APPEALING IN BLOGS. EEK. MAYBE THEY WILL SCARE AWAY MY READERS!! *SHOCK* YOU KNOW, YOU MUST COMMENT LOL HAHA. [that wasn't very funny, but due to capslock.. yeah.] YOU NEED TO MUNCH ON THIS ENTRY. IT'S VERY YUMMY. JUST IMAGINE IT WITH YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD. AND THEN WAIT TILL IT DIGESTS. AND THEN COMMENT. YAY !!! BUT DON'T GO TO THE TOILET. BY EXCRETING, I MEAN GIVING OUT YOUR THOUGHTS. yes yes... ><

I DUMPED JAY CHOU. HURRAH. MANDY LI OR SOMEONE CAN HAVE HIM NOW. yes, when did we ever get married, you ask. NEVER DID, IN FACT. MY IMAGINATION IS JUST BEYOND ITS LIMITS, THAT IS ALL. I LIKE EDISON CHEN NOW. but i still like jay chou's songs. he's one of the best mandarin pop singers ever. ANYWAY WHEN I DATE A GUY, I WILL GET SOMEONE WITH REALLY NICE HAIR. YOU KNOW, I LIKE SPIKED HAIR. BUT NOT FULL ON GELLED SPIKED HAIR. ICKY!

I HAVE MACDONALD STICKER BOOK TABS THINGS*. WHO WANTS THEM. ^^

aiyah, i sound like my sister. i also felt like stoof in the first few paragraphs. she has the funniest insults ever. they actually work too LOL. >_> *sigh* aquathon sounds intriguing. Who wants to die first?

hey guys, do we do all the set work for monday? [acceleration maths] or just the TSA because i have done that already...

i like year nine. school is very fun/amusing. especially lunchtimes haha!! but just too much hw... >< eek ! i think mrs gray is going to hate me this year. she looked at me around 5 times in history today because i was talking to Gloria. I wonder if she yells at people. gah! ><